Twitterpated

To him it was probably nothing,
but to me, talking to him on the phone way too late at night was the highlight of my whole day.
So much so that when I woke up, for a split second, I thought it had been a dream. 
As he sat there playing his guitar to me I couldn't help but wish I could stay there forever. I couldn't help but get those butterflies in my stomach as I looked up into his eyes, and that feeling has yet to cease.
As his fingers gently glided across that guitar it seemed as if he was strumming at the strings of my heart.
Call me a hopeless romantic, cause that's exactly what I am, but seriously, I just wanted to make time stand still and live in that moment forever. I'm not sure what it is about him, and I'm sure one day I'll look back on this and think of how absolutely silly I am, but for the time being, I am totally and completely infatuated with him.... I am totally and completely infatuated with him, and I don't really understand why.

"And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you"

-that song became one-hundred-million times cuter the moment he sang it to me :)

The Fairytale I needed

It was magical...no words can describe the complete and utter joy I felt yesterday as I once again learned what it feels like to just live.

First of all: I got asked to Homecoming! When the doorbell rang I was in my pajamas getting ready to go to bed and my mom called me up saying the door was for me. Finally, I thought, things might be turning for the better. So I ran up the stairs to find this on my porch:

P.S. that little^ rock on the left said Yes on it
I was glad, and even though the BYU-Utah game happens to be on the same day as homecoming, I got over it :)
Well, the next day was school, but being Friday, everything was a little better. My best friend and I even went out to JCW's for lunch and began our 'try-every-flavor-of-ice cream-at-JCW's-challenge'. And even though I was late for 4th period, I didn't care.
After school my best friend decided to help me answer Ben to homecoming. So there we were, along with our other friends McKell and Heather, making cupcakes and a poster with "It would rock my world to go to homecoming with you" with the O on rOck being the actual rock saying yes on it. And then on Ben's porch there was sitting some random sidewalk chalk, therefore, we decided to draw a pretty chalk mural around the cupcakes and such before we doorbell ditched them and secretly watched as Ben's little sister opened the door and just stood there staring at it for a little while. 

After that little adventure we decided to be spontaneous, we went to U-Swirl and had a TON of free samples. I tried every flavor, some multiple times, so yes it was a lot of frozen yogurt, and then we bought a bunch of those little round topping things that explode in your mouth...they make me happy. At this point we had no where to go, so we drove around. We even went around a round-a-bout 12 times...yes 12, I was dizzy. And somehow we ended up in front of some random persons house, parking the car, and adventuring down into this little hidden pond. We went under this willow tree, a gigantic willow tree, where it was just us, enclosed in this little safe haven. There was a swing, so I swung, the warm summer air blowing my hair...and at that moment I forgot about all my worries-of school, and friends, and life- cause at that moment, everything was perfect. 

We continued on our adventure, climbing through wire fences, up and over hills, hopping over ditches and walking through the tall grass, until we came to the tree. Our tree, the perfect tree, in which we climbed until we could climb no higher, and we sat. We sat there, and I looked up, up through the green tree canopy, up to where the night sky was lit by the full blue moon. Up. To where my newly found best friend sat, at only one week of acquaintance he was teaching me how to live, how to love, and how to be happy.

Excuses Excuses :)

I'm pretty sure I've been so busy the last couple weeks to even think about sitting down and blogging so... that's my excuse, and now I'll attempt to summarize the recent little bit of my life:

Christmas was dandy, and then three days later I was on my way to California :) I was with some of my most favoritest (yes, that's incorrect english) people in the entire world and it was a serious party. Even the 14 hour bus ride wasn't as bad simply because I got to enjoy the company of my amazing friends. and maybe i also enjoyed it cause I sat next to him the whole time. Disneyland definitely became my happiest place on earth. Rides, Food, Friends, Talking, Laughing, Carefree... it was perfect.  Every second of those two days in Disneyland will now forever be a memory that I will hopefully always remember. It was everything I expected and more. yes, i spent nearly every moment with him, went on every ride with him, enjoyed all my time with him. But the fun didn't stop there. There was also a New Years dance, Hollywood, the beach and also some very enjoyed free time at the hotel. Finally at the end of the week came the Rose parade. It ended up not being as hard as anticipated... but that definitely does not mean it wasn't hard. I thought my arms were going to fall off! but I'm proud to say I made it, and now it will be something I can always look back on.  Although I must say that one of the best feelings ever was seeing the end of that 7 mile parade route. And now it's all over. Probably one of the best weeks of my life thus far. It was amazing, and it was quite the shock coming back to reality: back to school, coming back to the end of the semester, back to the stress. but that's life. 

Kirsten & Tanner

Kyle, Kenz & Cameron

Pluto!!

We ran into my family while in Disneyland...

so this is me and Kolbein :)

Tanner and I took this picture :)

I like it

Eliza & Kirsten

she was in my room... party!

So that was my not so short summary of California. And since then it's just been school, dance, family, the normal. Today's Kolbein's birthday... just thought I'd throw that out there. He's turning six which means I'm sixteen in twelve days :) well have a great day, I'm going to go enjoy mine.

I Think I Think Too Much...

 today I thought of things, people, places to be,

my fantasies, reality, and the things I did see.

I thought of the thoughts that others might think, and,

as silly as it seems, their thoughts about me.

Do I visit their thoughts only seldom or more?

Am I pleasant or not in those thinkings galore,

when I'm thinking of them do they think of me too?

And am I the only one who thinks these things through...

Do I matter to them as much as they do to me,

but I may never know so I'll let it just be.

La La Land

One moment I'm there, then suddenly I'm gone. I'm sure my eyes get this glazed over look as if I'm staring into outerspace.

My mind slowly drifts...the voices around me fade and I'm in my perfect fantasy. Never logical or realistic my mind creates a beautiful image. Whatever it may be. An image of a perfect world, just perfect and carefree. You have all been there at one time...for some more frequently. Like me I was there for most of my day, it's just so calm and comforting. To dream and wish, it's what I love. And then there's reality.

My eyes become focused, my mind becomes clear and once again I'm there. It's like waking up to an annoying alarm clock except the alarm is an annoying voice with no snooze button. It's that wonderful realization that you have no idea what the teacher is talking about and that you just missed the whole class discussion...great. But it's totally worth it. :)     

11-11-11...the only 1

Guess what?

I know I say this all

the time but I will tell you

again, you only get to live today

once...that's right once. 11-11-11

it's the only one, every breathe

is one you can't get back,

every moment of

sad-

ness

is

one

mo-

ment

of

happ-

iness

you'll

ne-

ver

live.

so

make

to-

day

a

good

one

Make a Wish and Make it Happen

see what I did there? (just in case you're blonde like me and need some assistance) the words make one of those little wishing weeds, the ones that parents hate but I adore, that blow into the wind and make you feel all happy inside. I like those weeds :)

with love,

the blonde one  

finding a way to forget life and live

Life is perfect,

who would've thought I'd be saying that,

but I am,

and you may be wondering...

why so perfect?

answer: there's no reason it can't be,

I've learned to live,

don't live in the past but learn from it,

don't live only for the present but live with it,

don't wish for the future but determine what it will be,

Life is a gift

 and sometimes we just have to step back,

forget about stress,

forget about silly little things,

and appreciate life for what it's worth,

I just feel joy,

and there is no particlular reason,

except for there is no reason to be anything except

happy.

but maybe he does add to the happiness,

and maybe sitting next to him with us playing the piano

is the best feeling in the world,

and maybe long late night talks are really nice,

and maybe I just really love life.

and maybe I've learned what it really means to live...

because I love it

 Just because....

because we were there



It's a Fairytale

It's those moments when you want time to slow down,

when you wish you could stay there forever,

when you forget about everything else in life and just breathe...

It's these moments that keep me going in life, that give me a reason to live;

I live for these moments

It's when you're with your best friends laying in the grass late at night starring at the stars having deep conversations. It's so surreal...it's so magical...it's like a fairytale that came to real life.

Then there's this other thing called reality... that at those special moments you get to ignore ...but then at some point you always have to return, stupid reality. But if we didn't have reality we wouldn't realize how magical those moments truely are.

Do we create those "fairytale" moments, or do they just happen? Is it something we have control over, or is it all up to fate?

Well whatever it is, i like it, and i'm grateful for those moments. For it's those moments that become memories that keep me going when it's one of "those days" and i promise that you are part of one of my various special moments that i'll always cherish forever...thanks for being a part of my life :)