She closes the door behind her, so no one else can hear. The sun pours in through the window as she sits down on that wooden bench. The silence fills the room until one finger gently presses down on that smooth white key.  Her heart and mind slowly unfold as that music pierces the air. A song only played once, and only she's there to hear it. In the empty eggshell-colored room she feels free for the first time that day. Each note takes her to a new place. It is her favorite feeling. She leaves this world for a moment, her mind is cleared and her eyes are opened to a different understanding. As her hands continue to glide up and down the keys, there is no tension to be found. So many emotions now float through the air...if only someone else could escape into this world with her, into her home away from home.

Dancing in the moonlight

Adventures are good, sometimes the best adventures occur when you become lost.
When some people get lost they suddenly become filled with anxiety, don't know what to do, and panic...which I do that too, to some extent, but I also become so excited, wondering where this unknown path will take us. Sometimes, when you're lucky, this path simply leads you into a meadow, hidden in the trees, with the sunlight filtering through the multicolored fall leaf canopy, and sometimes that little safe haven is better than any place you had originally planned.

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 Later that day...

I felt like a princess. It took a solid two hours, but thanks to my incredible mother, I was able to look in the mirror and think to myself, "I am beautiful", which is a thought that rarely passes through my head.
It was a blast. I was with some of the best people in the world, and I wouldn't have changed anything about this last night. Everything was PERFECT.

just pretend this photo is super great... (even though it's not)

 Love this girl like a sister :)

 Ben and I

*more photos to come*

The Fairytale I needed

It was magical...no words can describe the complete and utter joy I felt yesterday as I once again learned what it feels like to just live.

First of all: I got asked to Homecoming! When the doorbell rang I was in my pajamas getting ready to go to bed and my mom called me up saying the door was for me. Finally, I thought, things might be turning for the better. So I ran up the stairs to find this on my porch:

P.S. that little^ rock on the left said Yes on it
I was glad, and even though the BYU-Utah game happens to be on the same day as homecoming, I got over it :)
Well, the next day was school, but being Friday, everything was a little better. My best friend and I even went out to JCW's for lunch and began our 'try-every-flavor-of-ice cream-at-JCW's-challenge'. And even though I was late for 4th period, I didn't care.
After school my best friend decided to help me answer Ben to homecoming. So there we were, along with our other friends McKell and Heather, making cupcakes and a poster with "It would rock my world to go to homecoming with you" with the O on rOck being the actual rock saying yes on it. And then on Ben's porch there was sitting some random sidewalk chalk, therefore, we decided to draw a pretty chalk mural around the cupcakes and such before we doorbell ditched them and secretly watched as Ben's little sister opened the door and just stood there staring at it for a little while. 

After that little adventure we decided to be spontaneous, we went to U-Swirl and had a TON of free samples. I tried every flavor, some multiple times, so yes it was a lot of frozen yogurt, and then we bought a bunch of those little round topping things that explode in your mouth...they make me happy. At this point we had no where to go, so we drove around. We even went around a round-a-bout 12 times...yes 12, I was dizzy. And somehow we ended up in front of some random persons house, parking the car, and adventuring down into this little hidden pond. We went under this willow tree, a gigantic willow tree, where it was just us, enclosed in this little safe haven. There was a swing, so I swung, the warm summer air blowing my hair...and at that moment I forgot about all my worries-of school, and friends, and life- cause at that moment, everything was perfect. 

We continued on our adventure, climbing through wire fences, up and over hills, hopping over ditches and walking through the tall grass, until we came to the tree. Our tree, the perfect tree, in which we climbed until we could climb no higher, and we sat. We sat there, and I looked up, up through the green tree canopy, up to where the night sky was lit by the full blue moon. Up. To where my newly found best friend sat, at only one week of acquaintance he was teaching me how to live, how to love, and how to be happy.

Autumn Adventures Arrive

There's something to be said about that cool crisp air,

the leaves crunching beneath you feet,

walks along the path of color blazing trees,

it's the season for warm boots and sweatshirts,

perfect for cuddling up in a blanket and looking at the stars...

It's all just fantastical

Not only does nature become stunningly beautiful,

life just seems to become easier, or at least more enjoyable...

It's football season and even when my beloved BYU team isn't doing so great,

I still love watching it (:

and yes it is nerdy but I love competing with the marching band,

the feeling of standing there waiting for your named to be called for awards,

standing there knowing there are thousands of people watching *me*

the feeling of performing it's great...

Anyways: As of September 23rd Autumn has arrived as so has all the adventures that accompany this wonderful season.

It's a Fairytale

It's those moments when you want time to slow down,

when you wish you could stay there forever,

when you forget about everything else in life and just breathe...

It's these moments that keep me going in life, that give me a reason to live;

I live for these moments

It's when you're with your best friends laying in the grass late at night starring at the stars having deep conversations. It's so surreal...it's so magical...it's like a fairytale that came to real life.

Then there's this other thing called reality... that at those special moments you get to ignore ...but then at some point you always have to return, stupid reality. But if we didn't have reality we wouldn't realize how magical those moments truely are.

Do we create those "fairytale" moments, or do they just happen? Is it something we have control over, or is it all up to fate?

Well whatever it is, i like it, and i'm grateful for those moments. For it's those moments that become memories that keep me going when it's one of "those days" and i promise that you are part of one of my various special moments that i'll always cherish forever...thanks for being a part of my life :)