Him...

My life has become somewhat centered around a twisted fairy tale.

when he sits next to me my heart jumps,

when he talks to me I feel like I can fly,

 when he smiles at me a small part of me explodes with happiness,

 and when he wraps his warm arms around me its as if the whole world has stopped and become perfect for just that small moment.

At these moments I feel a spark of hope... hope that he likes me as much as I like him

and then

I see him walking next to her,

he tells me how much he wishes she was there,

I read a text between them

and suddenly that small fragile spec of hope is swept away in the many whirlwinds of emotion.

Honestly, I tell him everything, he's my best friend and he somehow always manages to put me in a better mood, he says all the right things when I need it, he feels the exact same way as I do about nearly everything...except for the fact that I secretly adore him. At times its almost as if he likes me too.

It would make my life so much easier if I could just get over him and let us be friends... 

Do I give up? Or do I hold on?

I'm so confused...If you have any advice, it would be much appreciated

Love,

Blondie

The breaking point...

When you fail tests,

somehow life seems to fall apart,

It's not THAT big of a deal...

but it just starts with those little things like

doing bad on a test,

and everything seems to snowball into a bad day...

and how do we change that?

Well to be honest with ya that ^ was me today and at one point in my day I just wanted to quit, I wanted to go curl up the corner and never leave. Then I remembered this fabulous quote:

So with that and general conference thoughts popping into my head,

I decided to change my day.

I looked at the positive:

• I have wonderful friends who listen to all my complaining
• I have a family who loves me (even if I do fail my test)
• There's always someone that's in a worse situation than me
• My situations definitely not that bad
• I have the gospel in my life and am lucky enough to be blessed with such a wonderful life full of wonderful people and wonderful things....
• Ultimately I realized I just need to be more grateful
• Plus I realized that 'fail' just stands for:

 F- first

 A- attempt

I- in

 L- learning

:)

"When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry,

show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile."

I'm wishing

I wish

that school was easy...that I was smart and could get good grades easily

but it doesn't work that way, therefore i am drowning in homework. I feel like everything is falling apart and that it's impossible to get it back together.

Wouldn't it be nice to just be laying on the beach with no worries and stress free? yeah,

I wish.

But no. I'm falling, I'm drowning and I need someone to come save me...


(hugs are always appreciated)