Done...

"I've fallen like a fool for you...
..I tell myself I'm in too deep 
Then I fall a little farther 
Everytime you look at me"

Done...
    Everything,
             I'm
                Done

School is the last thing I want to do

I'm so mentally ready for a break

A break from everything

But deep down inside I don't want to be done with him,

I don't want everything we had to just vanish,

yet I can't handle it anymore.

'Tis time for Christmas Break

Finally.

I don't know why some days seem so much harder than others,

but they are.

I don't know why this week was so very grotesque,

but it was.

Tests,

Headaches,

Concerts,

Homework,

Missing,

No time,

Drama,

Blah,

Blah,

Blah,

Maybe it was just the combination of everything crashing down on me....

but its Friday,

Finally.

But to be positive:

I got a hug

I passed road test

only one more week until break

I still had dance to let out emotions

its over

and now I'll try and enjoy this blessing of a weekend.

I might actually try going and doing something tonight other than watch chick flicks all alone.

but let's be honest,

the one thing that will be on my mind nearly all weekend will be him,

and I'll sit on my couch, piano, or bed

and just stare at my phone.

I'll wish for that text even a simple "hey"

but thus it will never appear...

so then I will wonder if I should be the one,

or is he just annoyed when my name pops up on his screen,

would he quickly reply,

or delay his response cause he really doesn't want to talk to me,

So i'll argue with myself again and again until I

lose the battle and finally give in.

Finally.