Him...

My life has become somewhat centered around a twisted fairy tale.

when he sits next to me my heart jumps,

when he talks to me I feel like I can fly,

 when he smiles at me a small part of me explodes with happiness,

 and when he wraps his warm arms around me its as if the whole world has stopped and become perfect for just that small moment.

At these moments I feel a spark of hope... hope that he likes me as much as I like him

and then

I see him walking next to her,

he tells me how much he wishes she was there,

I read a text between them

and suddenly that small fragile spec of hope is swept away in the many whirlwinds of emotion.

Honestly, I tell him everything, he's my best friend and he somehow always manages to put me in a better mood, he says all the right things when I need it, he feels the exact same way as I do about nearly everything...except for the fact that I secretly adore him. At times its almost as if he likes me too.

It would make my life so much easier if I could just get over him and let us be friends... 

Do I give up? Or do I hold on?

I'm so confused...If you have any advice, it would be much appreciated

Love,

Blondie